During my stay here in Seattle, I made my way over to Edge of the Circle, and picked up some "Fast Luck Oil" and a money candle, and finally got a proper incense for Sekhmet from Rosarium Blends.
I'll admit, this was going to be my first time doing money magic, and while my finances have been good here, they could be better. So I decided to give it a shot.
I did my work on Sunday, during the hour of Jupiter. Carved the symbol of Jupiter into the candle, dressed the candle with my Fast Luck oil, prayed my intentions of what avenues I wanted used to grant me the money I wanted (you know, not having someone die and leave me money, that sort of thing)
The candle burned oddly compared to other candles I've burnt. The other candles I've burnt have mainly been offerings to gods, and spirits. They seem to get eaten right up, down to almost the last drop of wax. It just evaporates as if the candle was never there. I honestly thought that this was typical of candles, but that doesn't seem to be the case.
This time, the candle I burned melted into a puddle. This was so strange to me, that I looked it up. I was sure it had to mean "something" other than "oh, my candle melted into a puddle and all the wax is still here) And after a little research I discovered a form of divination called Ceromancy, or the art of reading candles/candle wax. There seems to be a couple of forms of this. One form involves "reading" the candle as it burns, and watching signs of things like smoke, crackling, speed of melting, how the candle melts, when the candle burns out, etc. The other involves taking hot candle wax and dripping it into some cold water, and reading the shapes the wax take.
I'd actually been doing some of this for a long time, and never knew that there was a word for it. I'd watch the candles and "read" them for any signs the gods/spirits might have been trying to tell me. How quickly the candle burned, how easily it lit, how much of the candle was left over.. to me these things told me important things about how the spirit was accepting the offering, if they were accepting it. If it was sluggish, I noted what planetary hour I was doing my offerings in, and considered that it may have been a poor hour for working with them.
Now that I know that there's an actual word for this, and much more to reading candles than I have currently learned, I'm planning on learning much more about this art. It's quite useful, and the better I can understand it, the better my workings will be.
The exploratory writings and magical experiences of a Hermetic Egypto-Pagan.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Lucid Dreaming, and how to protect yourself magically when you sleep
After a recent event, I want to talk about lucid dreaming.
This is a skill that I'm sure a lot of people have heard of, but not everyone knows how to achieve.
You may be familiar with the idea of recording your dreams or becoming more aware of them, but I've discovered a very useful trick that seems to work wonders for making you go lucid while in your dream.
But why would you want to take control of your dreams? Sure there's the idea that you could direct your dreams, fly around, visit fantastic places in your head, but there's the other side of the coin: Sometimes we get stuck in nightmares with no idea how to wake up or get out.
The latter was the case with me yesterday evening. I have been visiting a friend, and after noticing some odd energy and disturbances in the kitchen (with nothing there when I checked) one night, within 24 hours I had a strange and terrifying string of nightmares when I took a nap. What strikes me the most about this, is that I was experiencing horrors for days in the dream, and I was only asleep for an hour and a half, and an entity presented itself to me in the nightmare, and tried to "claim" me. while I was finding myself in a pit of my own insanity. Very Lovecraftian really, complete with tentacle-like tendrils.
I managed to break out. How? I've observed my dreams enough to know the strange patterns that seem to fill my creepy dream worlds: doors that hinge on the wrong side, rooms that are clean when they are normally cluttered- basically things that are subtle but still quite creepy and give a feeling of "wrongness" I know my mind well enough to know what to look for subconsciously to break out of a dream I want no part of. I've developed a method where I will bite my thumb if I think that I'm dreaming. If I am dreaming, the thumb will deflate like a creepy balloon. If I'm not dreaming, it will hurt like a bitch, and leave bite marks. If you create a way to check yourself on whether you're dreaming or not, and make it something that's important, something that you memorize, something that will become second nature to you if you're dreaming to do...then you've got a weapon against dreams you don't want. You can break out, no matter how bad the nightmare.
I have since erected proper wards against the negative energy hanging around, and have added a prayer to Anubis and Sekhmet before I sleep here.
Sekhmet, Lion of War, protect me from those that wish me harm as I sleep tonight.
Illuminate any plot against me, and those who may wish me harm. Help me to see the truth.
Anubis, guide and guardian, guard my path tonight as I sleep, so that my mind and soul do not wander into places of darkness. Stand with me, and protect me from harm.
This simple idea for a prayer will work with other gods as well, and you can tailor it to your needs. I've been sleeping like a log since I started doing it.
Combined with being able to know when you're dreaming, and break out of any negative dreams, you have a potent tool against getting caught in nightmares, whether influenced by outside forces, or natural.
A cleaning is also in order for the place I am staying, but I will take care of that as I am able. I hope to pick up some Florida water tomorrow, and clear out any negative energies, and keep them out. I'll probably talk about how that goes when I'm able to do it.
This is a skill that I'm sure a lot of people have heard of, but not everyone knows how to achieve.
You may be familiar with the idea of recording your dreams or becoming more aware of them, but I've discovered a very useful trick that seems to work wonders for making you go lucid while in your dream.
But why would you want to take control of your dreams? Sure there's the idea that you could direct your dreams, fly around, visit fantastic places in your head, but there's the other side of the coin: Sometimes we get stuck in nightmares with no idea how to wake up or get out.
The latter was the case with me yesterday evening. I have been visiting a friend, and after noticing some odd energy and disturbances in the kitchen (with nothing there when I checked) one night, within 24 hours I had a strange and terrifying string of nightmares when I took a nap. What strikes me the most about this, is that I was experiencing horrors for days in the dream, and I was only asleep for an hour and a half, and an entity presented itself to me in the nightmare, and tried to "claim" me. while I was finding myself in a pit of my own insanity. Very Lovecraftian really, complete with tentacle-like tendrils.
I managed to break out. How? I've observed my dreams enough to know the strange patterns that seem to fill my creepy dream worlds: doors that hinge on the wrong side, rooms that are clean when they are normally cluttered- basically things that are subtle but still quite creepy and give a feeling of "wrongness" I know my mind well enough to know what to look for subconsciously to break out of a dream I want no part of. I've developed a method where I will bite my thumb if I think that I'm dreaming. If I am dreaming, the thumb will deflate like a creepy balloon. If I'm not dreaming, it will hurt like a bitch, and leave bite marks. If you create a way to check yourself on whether you're dreaming or not, and make it something that's important, something that you memorize, something that will become second nature to you if you're dreaming to do...then you've got a weapon against dreams you don't want. You can break out, no matter how bad the nightmare.
I have since erected proper wards against the negative energy hanging around, and have added a prayer to Anubis and Sekhmet before I sleep here.
Sekhmet, Lion of War, protect me from those that wish me harm as I sleep tonight.
Illuminate any plot against me, and those who may wish me harm. Help me to see the truth.
Anubis, guide and guardian, guard my path tonight as I sleep, so that my mind and soul do not wander into places of darkness. Stand with me, and protect me from harm.
This simple idea for a prayer will work with other gods as well, and you can tailor it to your needs. I've been sleeping like a log since I started doing it.
Combined with being able to know when you're dreaming, and break out of any negative dreams, you have a potent tool against getting caught in nightmares, whether influenced by outside forces, or natural.
A cleaning is also in order for the place I am staying, but I will take care of that as I am able. I hope to pick up some Florida water tomorrow, and clear out any negative energies, and keep them out. I'll probably talk about how that goes when I'm able to do it.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Professionalism- He does not have it
One of the problems I run into with modeling of any kind, is how to get information out of photographers about what it is they actually want. I've gotten pretty good at this, and my work with Sekhmet seems to help me perfect the art of "candor" I've learned to be blunt and open, so that everything is on the table. The other side of the coin is that this is also the art of calling people on their bullshit, and often open and blunt, isn't very polite.
I've been chatting back and forth with a photographer out near Olympia, and was setting up a shoot with him. He'd seemed a little odd, but I was sure it was just him being eccentric. When I confirmed that I was interested, and wanted to set up a day to work with him, he sent me this:
"You'll be shooting erotica with my 35 year old son.
He will pay your rate and do the shoot. I am asking him to do some experimental work for me with the use of an iPhone instaed of a pro camera - it's easiier to tavel with less elecronic gear through TSA and is lighter weight using less battery than normal - yet the results are much better than expected. "
Whoa, whoa, wait, what?
First off, where did the "erotica" bit come from, and why are you getting your son, who I have never talked to, who we never discussed, to shoot pictures of me, when you said YOU were going to do it?
This was the stuff going through my head, instead I replied with:
"(Name of Photographer),
I'm going to have to decline. I signed up to shoot with you, not someone I know nothing about, and the fact that this has been sprung on me like this makes me very uncomfortable. I do not think I will be working with you"
He replied, saying that "We're not monsters dear" but at this point it's not worth saying more.
Sekhmet has reinforced the idea that I need to stand up for what I believe in, walk my talk, and regardless of any justifications this person can give, therefore I shouldn't give them any of my time at this point.
Regardless of whether or not these individuals are "monsters," it doesn't matter. Humans make errors in judgment, it's part of what makes us human. Some of us make errors in judgment more often than others, and that includes things like poor communication skills and pushing boundaries without meaning to. In a high risk choice of work like I'm in, I can't afford to accept apologies and justifications. I travel around the country, often alone, to model for strange people with cameras who I have often never met. An error was made, and it was one that completely disregarded any common sense about communicating logistics, which is a huge part of being a professional in any field.
There was a time that I would have felt guilty for turning down a job because someone made a mistake. I was more desperate then, and I didn't have the sense of self and confidence that I have gained since beginning my work with Sekhmet. I don't have to justify myself to anyone. I'm better than that. I'm making at least enough by myself to keep my head above water. I go on fantastic adventures with photographers who drive me into the woods, or the desert to secluded places where few humans ever tread. I don't need people who give me the run around. I'm building relationships with awesome people out here who want to have a continuous mutually beneficial arrangement as professionals in our field.
I work hard to communicate clearly, put everything on the table, and be open to bartering when it comes to rate, and the budget of the photographer. I do my damnedest to make sure that I am comfortable, safe, and that the photographer is as well. I won't settle for anything less, and that's ok.
I'm worth it, and so are the people who I actually choose to work with. This is one of the biggest ways I've worked with Sekhmet and applied it to every day life. She is the Lion of War (physical as well as internal battles), she is Strength, and the lessons I have learned from her have been invaluable.
I've been chatting back and forth with a photographer out near Olympia, and was setting up a shoot with him. He'd seemed a little odd, but I was sure it was just him being eccentric. When I confirmed that I was interested, and wanted to set up a day to work with him, he sent me this:
"You'll be shooting erotica with my 35 year old son.
He will pay your rate and do the shoot. I am asking him to do some experimental work for me with the use of an iPhone instaed of a pro camera - it's easiier to tavel with less elecronic gear through TSA and is lighter weight using less battery than normal - yet the results are much better than expected. "
Whoa, whoa, wait, what?
First off, where did the "erotica" bit come from, and why are you getting your son, who I have never talked to, who we never discussed, to shoot pictures of me, when you said YOU were going to do it?
This was the stuff going through my head, instead I replied with:
"(Name of Photographer),
I'm going to have to decline. I signed up to shoot with you, not someone I know nothing about, and the fact that this has been sprung on me like this makes me very uncomfortable. I do not think I will be working with you"
He replied, saying that "We're not monsters dear" but at this point it's not worth saying more.
Sekhmet has reinforced the idea that I need to stand up for what I believe in, walk my talk, and regardless of any justifications this person can give, therefore I shouldn't give them any of my time at this point.
Regardless of whether or not these individuals are "monsters," it doesn't matter. Humans make errors in judgment, it's part of what makes us human. Some of us make errors in judgment more often than others, and that includes things like poor communication skills and pushing boundaries without meaning to. In a high risk choice of work like I'm in, I can't afford to accept apologies and justifications. I travel around the country, often alone, to model for strange people with cameras who I have often never met. An error was made, and it was one that completely disregarded any common sense about communicating logistics, which is a huge part of being a professional in any field.
There was a time that I would have felt guilty for turning down a job because someone made a mistake. I was more desperate then, and I didn't have the sense of self and confidence that I have gained since beginning my work with Sekhmet. I don't have to justify myself to anyone. I'm better than that. I'm making at least enough by myself to keep my head above water. I go on fantastic adventures with photographers who drive me into the woods, or the desert to secluded places where few humans ever tread. I don't need people who give me the run around. I'm building relationships with awesome people out here who want to have a continuous mutually beneficial arrangement as professionals in our field.
I work hard to communicate clearly, put everything on the table, and be open to bartering when it comes to rate, and the budget of the photographer. I do my damnedest to make sure that I am comfortable, safe, and that the photographer is as well. I won't settle for anything less, and that's ok.
I'm worth it, and so are the people who I actually choose to work with. This is one of the biggest ways I've worked with Sekhmet and applied it to every day life. She is the Lion of War (physical as well as internal battles), she is Strength, and the lessons I have learned from her have been invaluable.
Smooth Sailing
After last month's ups and downs, August looks to be a much better month.
As planned, I've been praying to the goddess Columbia, offering my support against the "Response" and the "christian prayer warriors" who do things like pray for people they don't agree with to get cancer and go blind.
I'm currently visiting Seattle, and have gone on numerous adventures since my arrival to the area. After my first rideshare flaked out on me, I managed to procure one just hours before I needed to leave to get to a scheduled photoshoot.
After my shoot (which was awesome) I went on my first motorcycle ride for the next leg of the trip. I clung like a backpack to the guy driving, while mentally praying to Sekhmet to give me strength, while zipping down the road at 80mph and going over hills from Tacoma to arrive at my destination in Seattle. It was pretty intense to say the least. Though apparently I didn't do too bad as a passenger.
I had to make an emergency trip back to Portland, where I made an offering to Sekhmet, and did some cleansing work before I left for Seattle again.
Since then I've been around some wonderful magical people, and done a lot of photo shoots. In the past few days, I've been all over Washington state, accidentally discovered an army training facility in the middle of the desert, got paid to do all sorts of crazy things, and went frolicking in a frog pond (there were dozens of them) and got pictures taken while skinny dipping as a creature from the black lagoon (I was covered in pond scum, and had fish nibbling my toes; it was awesome)
Work is coming steadily, and I'm making connections left and right out here for future work when I live in Olympia. I've already nearly made what I need for my portion of rent/deposit for the apartment that Erelin and I are planning on getting. I've still got six days out here too! It's looking to be a very promising month, and hopefully, I will be introduced to more people out here soon.
I'm terribly sunburned after yesterday's adventure, but It'll pass pretty quick. Right now I'm looking forward to relaxing a bit, before another shoot tomorrow, and invoking Sekhmet to enjoy the big beef heart in the fridge that I'll be grilling up later.
As planned, I've been praying to the goddess Columbia, offering my support against the "Response" and the "christian prayer warriors" who do things like pray for people they don't agree with to get cancer and go blind.
I'm currently visiting Seattle, and have gone on numerous adventures since my arrival to the area. After my first rideshare flaked out on me, I managed to procure one just hours before I needed to leave to get to a scheduled photoshoot.
After my shoot (which was awesome) I went on my first motorcycle ride for the next leg of the trip. I clung like a backpack to the guy driving, while mentally praying to Sekhmet to give me strength, while zipping down the road at 80mph and going over hills from Tacoma to arrive at my destination in Seattle. It was pretty intense to say the least. Though apparently I didn't do too bad as a passenger.
I had to make an emergency trip back to Portland, where I made an offering to Sekhmet, and did some cleansing work before I left for Seattle again.
Since then I've been around some wonderful magical people, and done a lot of photo shoots. In the past few days, I've been all over Washington state, accidentally discovered an army training facility in the middle of the desert, got paid to do all sorts of crazy things, and went frolicking in a frog pond (there were dozens of them) and got pictures taken while skinny dipping as a creature from the black lagoon (I was covered in pond scum, and had fish nibbling my toes; it was awesome)
Work is coming steadily, and I'm making connections left and right out here for future work when I live in Olympia. I've already nearly made what I need for my portion of rent/deposit for the apartment that Erelin and I are planning on getting. I've still got six days out here too! It's looking to be a very promising month, and hopefully, I will be introduced to more people out here soon.
I'm terribly sunburned after yesterday's adventure, but It'll pass pretty quick. Right now I'm looking forward to relaxing a bit, before another shoot tomorrow, and invoking Sekhmet to enjoy the big beef heart in the fridge that I'll be grilling up later.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Spiritual Warfare
I've been reeling from some things in my home life recently, and now I'm picking myself up and getting back to everything I put on the backburner. At the same time, I've been informed of a very disturbing situation forming. I urge you to read the Wild Hunt's article on the matter.
Spiritual warfare is very real, and more people need to be aware of what is happening in our country, and around the world. These people are practicing what many would call "black magic" forcing their will onto others, wishing harm upon those who will not conform to their ideas of what is right in the world. I grew up in an Apostolic church. I know what some of these people are capable of, and it's some scary scary shit.
It doesn't matter what your religion, or non-religion is. The fact of the matter is that these types of people are growing in desperation, and are already doing things that kill people who they don't agree with. I'm sure everyone has heard about the tragedy in Norway. Shit like that can, and has happened here in the states. For the same stupid reason: "these people are different from us, and believe something different than us so they must be evil"
We are mages, witches, priests, and priestesses, kings and queens of our domain. Do we not have power to change things? So why aren't we? Have we gotten so complacent, so jaded in our journeys into the self, that we forget our fellow man? How many of us do workings to aid the whole? The world, and the people in it? Is it because of the questionable ethics of meddling in the lives of others? Then what are we doing when we pray for the well being of a friend or a family member? Are we doing wrong then, if we didn't ask for their permission first? I don't think so, and I don't think you think so either. (though if you do, I'd love to hear more about why in the comments)
So what do I think we should do? What am I going to do, at very least? I am going to join other pagan bloggers, and start praying to Columbia. I'm going to make a conscious commitment to think about what this country stands for, and to put energy into preventing people from perverting that purpose. Did you know that in Texas the school board is writing Thomas Jefferson out of the history books? It's because he coined the term "separation of church and state" These people are not against warping history, and destroying facts to further their agenda.
Beyond that...I don't know. I just know that the foundation of our country is under attack, and that if the attackers had their way, there would be no compromise, no peace, only domination in the name of a being that they don't even come close to emulating.
Spiritual warfare is very real, and more people need to be aware of what is happening in our country, and around the world. These people are practicing what many would call "black magic" forcing their will onto others, wishing harm upon those who will not conform to their ideas of what is right in the world. I grew up in an Apostolic church. I know what some of these people are capable of, and it's some scary scary shit.
It doesn't matter what your religion, or non-religion is. The fact of the matter is that these types of people are growing in desperation, and are already doing things that kill people who they don't agree with. I'm sure everyone has heard about the tragedy in Norway. Shit like that can, and has happened here in the states. For the same stupid reason: "these people are different from us, and believe something different than us so they must be evil"
We are mages, witches, priests, and priestesses, kings and queens of our domain. Do we not have power to change things? So why aren't we? Have we gotten so complacent, so jaded in our journeys into the self, that we forget our fellow man? How many of us do workings to aid the whole? The world, and the people in it? Is it because of the questionable ethics of meddling in the lives of others? Then what are we doing when we pray for the well being of a friend or a family member? Are we doing wrong then, if we didn't ask for their permission first? I don't think so, and I don't think you think so either. (though if you do, I'd love to hear more about why in the comments)
So what do I think we should do? What am I going to do, at very least? I am going to join other pagan bloggers, and start praying to Columbia. I'm going to make a conscious commitment to think about what this country stands for, and to put energy into preventing people from perverting that purpose. Did you know that in Texas the school board is writing Thomas Jefferson out of the history books? It's because he coined the term "separation of church and state" These people are not against warping history, and destroying facts to further their agenda.
Beyond that...I don't know. I just know that the foundation of our country is under attack, and that if the attackers had their way, there would be no compromise, no peace, only domination in the name of a being that they don't even come close to emulating.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Planetary Timing, Going With the Flow
The house is feeling much more secure and clean after my spur-of-the-moment magick the other night. I still have yet to do a reading to find out what that was all about, but everything seems ok for the moment at least.
Life is returning more or less to normal, with the added bonus of possibly noticing a pattern in regard to events and planetary hours. To explain, I've been working on selling off my lizard's 6ft cage, so I can move an 8ft cage in. It had gotten to the point that I needed to get the cage out, and had offered it to a local pet store if they would just come and pick it up. They were supposed to pick it up at 11am tomorrow.
I got an email this evening, during the hour of mercury, from a woman who had seen my ad, and wanted to come look at the cage. I called her back, and she came over to see it. She seemed to like it, but needed to call the snake breeder to see if the cage was right for what she needed. I told her I was available until 2am if there was any way that she could confirm that she wanted it, and could pick it up tomorrow. So she went home to think it over, and to try to get ahold of the snake breeder. (It was past 10pm at this point)
I realized after she left, that the email she sent me had been sent and received during the hour of Mercury. I glanced at my planetary hour chart that I keep on my iGoogle home page, and it showed that the hour of Saturn had just started, soon to be followed by the hour of Jupiter. I decided to make a prediction based on this. I got ballsy enough to tell people in my friends circle (on facebook) that I was making the prediction, that within the next hour, I was going to hear back from this woman, and that she was going to take the cage, and that it would all be done before I had to leave tomorrow to Seattle.
I'll admit, as the hour of Jupiter was starting to draw to a close, I got nervous. I found myself thinking to myself "What if I'm wrong? I'll look silly to my friends, the people who matter in my life!" Then she called, with fifteen minutes to spare. Everything went smoothly, she offered a fair price, and we'll be getting it out of here by 3pm tomorrow afternoon.
I'm slightly nervous that my ride to Seattle has been silent for two days, despite attempts to call him, but I'm just going to kick back and trust the Universe on all of this. Why worry? The worst that happens is I have to postpone my trip by a few days, and I might have to clean up some lizard poop on the carpet. Pretty small thing to worry about if you ask me. It might put some plans to meet with potential clients on hold, and that might be a little embarrassing, but these things always happen for a reason. Something good is bound to be headed my way, even if it's not what I had planned. In times like this, it's good to just go with the flow :)
This is the little bastard who I'm going through all of this for btw. He's cute, so he gets away with making my life a little hectic. I suggest starting it at 0.15 then you avoid me blathering on with a camera in my face.
Life is returning more or less to normal, with the added bonus of possibly noticing a pattern in regard to events and planetary hours. To explain, I've been working on selling off my lizard's 6ft cage, so I can move an 8ft cage in. It had gotten to the point that I needed to get the cage out, and had offered it to a local pet store if they would just come and pick it up. They were supposed to pick it up at 11am tomorrow.
I got an email this evening, during the hour of mercury, from a woman who had seen my ad, and wanted to come look at the cage. I called her back, and she came over to see it. She seemed to like it, but needed to call the snake breeder to see if the cage was right for what she needed. I told her I was available until 2am if there was any way that she could confirm that she wanted it, and could pick it up tomorrow. So she went home to think it over, and to try to get ahold of the snake breeder. (It was past 10pm at this point)
I realized after she left, that the email she sent me had been sent and received during the hour of Mercury. I glanced at my planetary hour chart that I keep on my iGoogle home page, and it showed that the hour of Saturn had just started, soon to be followed by the hour of Jupiter. I decided to make a prediction based on this. I got ballsy enough to tell people in my friends circle (on facebook) that I was making the prediction, that within the next hour, I was going to hear back from this woman, and that she was going to take the cage, and that it would all be done before I had to leave tomorrow to Seattle.
I'll admit, as the hour of Jupiter was starting to draw to a close, I got nervous. I found myself thinking to myself "What if I'm wrong? I'll look silly to my friends, the people who matter in my life!" Then she called, with fifteen minutes to spare. Everything went smoothly, she offered a fair price, and we'll be getting it out of here by 3pm tomorrow afternoon.
I'm slightly nervous that my ride to Seattle has been silent for two days, despite attempts to call him, but I'm just going to kick back and trust the Universe on all of this. Why worry? The worst that happens is I have to postpone my trip by a few days, and I might have to clean up some lizard poop on the carpet. Pretty small thing to worry about if you ask me. It might put some plans to meet with potential clients on hold, and that might be a little embarrassing, but these things always happen for a reason. Something good is bound to be headed my way, even if it's not what I had planned. In times like this, it's good to just go with the flow :)
This is the little bastard who I'm going through all of this for btw. He's cute, so he gets away with making my life a little hectic. I suggest starting it at 0.15 then you avoid me blathering on with a camera in my face.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Prayers and Candle Magic
Things had been going swimmingly for a little while, and just the other day I hit a serious low spot. Being forced to suddenly re-evaluate your life plans will do that to you. I took the week off to deal with the situation, but thankfully the bounty of work I got last month will easily make up for this. Something strange happened last night though.
As I was turning off the lights, and getting ready for bed, I was hit by a sudden jolting need: I needed to pray. I didn't know why, but it was something I needed to do. I didn't know if it was for me, or for someone close to me, but something was wrong, and as I was setting up my altar, I felt the need to strengthen my wards and protect myself. I took a white candle, and from bottom to top carved my desire to be protected, to be safe from harm. I finished setting up the altar, lit the candle, and prayed to both Anubis and Sekhmet. I thanked them for walking with me, and standing by me, and I asked Anubis to stand with me, and protect me from those who wish me harm, and I called upon Sekhmet to illuminate any negative situations or individuals lurking in the shadows that I needed to be aware of. I asked her to protect me, to help me to find my inner strength, and to reflect back any negativity being sent towards me. I also asked that if there was anyone close to me who was at risk of being harmed, to grant them the same protection as well. I felt them both at my side, Anubis on my right, Sekhmet on my left.
At some point during all of this, I became aware of a presence nearby. At the time it seemed as if something was actually stalking around my wards, possibly even testing them. This was incredibly unusual. I'd had encounters like this as a child, but never as an adult. I'm still unsure about what this actually was.
I focused on the candle as it burned, letting the warmth fill me, and my home, my sacred space. I saw the light pulsing around the candle flame, and let the energy expand outward, cleansing all negativity from my space, and establishing a wall of light around my place of living. I exploded this energy outwards several times, establishing that this was my home, my territory, and that I was protected. Whatever the presence was, went away while I was establishing the burning wall of light.
I stayed at my altar for a good two hours, letting the candles burn down, strengthening my wards, and centering myself. The candles burned cleanly, and without any problems. By the time everything was done, I was exhausted, and had no problems getting to sleep.
This was also actually the first time that I had worked in conjunction with Anubis and Sekhmet. I had worked with them separately, but something told me last night that I needed to work with them together. Hopefully the other times won't be for things so concerning.
As I was turning off the lights, and getting ready for bed, I was hit by a sudden jolting need: I needed to pray. I didn't know why, but it was something I needed to do. I didn't know if it was for me, or for someone close to me, but something was wrong, and as I was setting up my altar, I felt the need to strengthen my wards and protect myself. I took a white candle, and from bottom to top carved my desire to be protected, to be safe from harm. I finished setting up the altar, lit the candle, and prayed to both Anubis and Sekhmet. I thanked them for walking with me, and standing by me, and I asked Anubis to stand with me, and protect me from those who wish me harm, and I called upon Sekhmet to illuminate any negative situations or individuals lurking in the shadows that I needed to be aware of. I asked her to protect me, to help me to find my inner strength, and to reflect back any negativity being sent towards me. I also asked that if there was anyone close to me who was at risk of being harmed, to grant them the same protection as well. I felt them both at my side, Anubis on my right, Sekhmet on my left.
At some point during all of this, I became aware of a presence nearby. At the time it seemed as if something was actually stalking around my wards, possibly even testing them. This was incredibly unusual. I'd had encounters like this as a child, but never as an adult. I'm still unsure about what this actually was.
I focused on the candle as it burned, letting the warmth fill me, and my home, my sacred space. I saw the light pulsing around the candle flame, and let the energy expand outward, cleansing all negativity from my space, and establishing a wall of light around my place of living. I exploded this energy outwards several times, establishing that this was my home, my territory, and that I was protected. Whatever the presence was, went away while I was establishing the burning wall of light.
I stayed at my altar for a good two hours, letting the candles burn down, strengthening my wards, and centering myself. The candles burned cleanly, and without any problems. By the time everything was done, I was exhausted, and had no problems getting to sleep.
This was also actually the first time that I had worked in conjunction with Anubis and Sekhmet. I had worked with them separately, but something told me last night that I needed to work with them together. Hopefully the other times won't be for things so concerning.
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